Today I felt proud because despite the fact that these past few weeks I've been slowly getting worse, I haven't given in to self harm or suicidal impulses. Even if I'm only going through the motions, I'm still moving and I'm still fighting.
Keep fighting that good fight – you have battled the pain and won before, and can do it again x
Today I was able to say that I want to be alive and that I do not want to die, that I do want to be alive and stay alive and experience life. For me, that is one of my biggest accomplishments since I have had suicidal thoughts for many years. This is the first time I can truly say I do not want to die and I am happy!!!!
this wasn't today but i still feel good about it; at the beginning of the month i tried to kill myself via overdosing but made myself throw it all up (at least 30 pills) because my kinda gf had called me and she was crying after i vaguely insinuated i was gonna finally kill myself. i'm mostly proud for managing to push away my own shadows so i could continue to share what's left of my light with her.